3 octobre 2008

 I'm busy here with my weblog, to tell u all about what is going on in my life. Then my phone rings. They call me with unknowing number. I'm thinking who will that be? My friends never call me with an unknowing number. But I can be courius, so I did pick up the phone. I'm so glad I did pick up the phone, because it was a women who wants to invite me for a sollicition!!I wrote the letter just yesterday and the next day she invite me!!The talk will be next thirstday!!My day is good!!It's crazy how you feel one day where everything seems bad and you feel down and then the next day you feel good and their are so much other oppertunity's!!Life is a rollercoaster!!
                     
                                   (Title: fokke & sokke got a sollicitation
                                       Left: What we expect from a job?
                                   Right: Every day going to they office and
                                           then you will get your salary)

2 octobre 2008

I'm still sick and laying in bed, but i don't feel as worse as i did the last fews day. So it's going to be better. Just one day i hope and then i can come out of bed, to do things that matters. U know when i'm not busy, i think so much. Well the last time i did sleep a lot, but i have been thinking to of all kind of things. But especially about what i want and about making the right choice. How do i know if i make the right choice? What do i have to do? My mind is telling me something different then my heart. The last years i did make my choices with my my, but i can't say it did make me happy. I think the time is there to finally follow my heart. My heart is telling me to go and to discover the world. Thats what makes me feel good. But how will i explain it to other? The will be disappointed in me and that is something i do hate. On the other side i will have a good feeling, if i will go my own way, to make my own luck. I want to got travelling for about a half year, to explore the world and after i have done that i will go further with my study. Yeah thats what i want, but will it be accepted?
                                                      

What a day, what a day!!As you could read before, i did think a lot about making the right choice. Yesterday I did discover, that it was bothering me this much, so much that i got pain in stumache. I will tell you how i did figger this out.
It was a half hour past two and my phone rings. I look on my phone to look who did called me. It was my mom. I pick up the phone en the first thing my mother asked: "how are u doing?" I said: "I'm hanging in" I didn't see my mother for about five days, but she said to me: "Not very well he, yeah that's what i thought." Mothers really do have some kind of instict to know how their kids are doing. I tried to tell my story over the phone, but my tears where dropping down and the blocked me to tell my story. Lovely as my mother always is, she told me to go to her, so that we could talk. After i did waped my tears and put on make-up, to hide my red eyes, I went to my mothers places. When I arrived my mother give me a huges hug and kiss. We get something to drink and find our places out the couch for a good talk. I did told my story. I told my mother I had no motivation anymore to go to school and emotional it was too hard for me. My mother did listen, she asked questiond and she give me advice. Just what i needed. Finally I told her i want to quit my study, to go work first and after to go travelling. Away from all the bad things here. After I did decide is, my stumache pain was over. It was such a relieve, after I felt much much better!!

                                          
Last year I graduate for my diplom of first aid. To keep up to date, u have to continue lessons. So from half hour past 7 till half hour pas 10 I was busy with my first aid. But I didn't like it. It felt like I was back in highschool again. It looked like science. This evening was about electricity. Two hours they where telling about culture electricity and nature electricity. Electricity is something I don't like and what they told I already had the nolige of. I think 15 minutes of the 2 hours they paid attence about what u have to do when someone get hit by electricity. It seems like there was no end. I was a little chagy about it, because last time I didn't went to first aid, so this time I had to come. But it was the same day as my club NEC nijmegen had to play for uefa. I didn't see the game because I had to go to first aid!!I didn't like the subject they where handling, so it did make it worse i couldn't see the game. Butttttttt we are going to the next round!!!That is making everything allright!!Who had thought this would happen!!Every step day will come closer to the final now is a pleasure, if they don't come furhter then this i don't care, because they have reach all ready so much, what nobody would expect!!I'm proud of NEC nijmegen !!! So it was time for a little party, as u will understand. After we sit for a while, we talked and we drink some drinks, we went to the next place. This was just what I needed, dancing, being crazy and thinking about nothing. I enjoyed the whole day!!When we left it was less nice. I ahng up my two jackets, one was still there, but they other was away. A women told me to come back the next day. MAybe they will have found it. But exactly I really didn't care about it, because i did feel good. No matter else matters. A lovely feeling!!

01 octobre 2008

I start my dutch weblog at this date. The english i start at 2 octobre 2008. I will let u know what i wrote at 1 octobre 2008, because i want that the dutch and english version looks like each other.

This is the day i start my log in dutch. I really did need the time to figger out how everythings is working around here. But i think i did it very well now. I got the time now, because i got sick in the weekend. I will tell u more on my blog later on, but im laying in my from sunday till now. So i didn;t do anything i can right about. I get crazy of doing nothing! But i dont have much choice. The details of my illness i will not discuse with u for ur own good.                   

Worldwide news

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My dutch page

This is the link to the same site but it is in dutch:
http://hetlevenvanmij.loggy.nl
                                   

Let me know what u think about my log!

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I will here place poems that i wrote.

The poems i did wrote are in dutch, but i did translate them to english so u will understand. I got a link to the poems i wrote because my page will not be organized if i will put them here. If u want to read my poems u can click on the links below:
english version:   http://englishversionhetlevenvanmij.loggy.nl/files/poems.doc

dutch version:    http://englishversionhetlevenvanmij.loggy.nl/files/gedichten.doc

What is the reason i start a weblog?

At the moment i got a lot going on in my mind. I have to make decisions which are not easy and i have to make choices. I think too much. I puzzle it over and over again. I hope to get more organized in my mind by putting my thoughts on paper.

What do i do in my life?

Before u will enter my blog, u might like to know with who u are dealing here.  I will introduce myself on this page.
Im a 22 year old girl who lives in the Netherlands. So my english is not the best, but i hope u will understand. At the moment i am studying psychology. In my spare time i like to sport and to do all kind of nice things. De sports i play are soccer, fitniss and running. Nice thing for me are shopping, visiting city's, going out, going to the movies and playing games. Other things i like to are music and travelling. As student i dont have much money, so i cant travel as much as i would like. If u want to know more about me. Ask me, u can write it in the guestbook(gastenboek) or with reactions (reacties). Thanks for visiting, hope u like it.